can't keep up with myself.

the highs and lows are exhausting.

I feel so fabulous one day,

then even within the next moment,

I feel as if I'm insufficient for the entire world.

it's as if somewhere inside,

I know my worth.

yet my loneliness always finds a way to eat myself alive.

maybe it's because I've got so much to give,

so much aching to escape from within,

yet there's nowhere for it to escape to.

I'm not even sure where I'll find the acceptance and love I'm searching for.

I have an immense amount of love for myself.

truly, more than I could have ever hoped for.

but still, I pray I won't always feel as if something is missing; like I do now.